“for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.”
The amplified version of the Scripture says
“For it is [not your strength, but it is] God who is effectively at work in you, both to will and to work [that is, strengthening, energizing, and creating in you the longing and the ability to fulfill your purpose] for His good pleasure.”Philippians 2:13 AMP
God wants me to do His will. It dawned on me, I am literally fighting against Him when I don’t submit to His will. It not only displeases Him and is disobedient, but I am fighting against Him.
Wednesday night I really struggled to go up and share what God had placed on my heart. It was that it is never too late for reconciliation and not to ignore the opportunities and nudging from Him. I have seen God do this in my own life and praise Him for the opportunity to reconcile.
I knew it was Him speaking. I knew it was His will and his work, a now moment for someone that was there. Yet for a while I still fought Him on it. It wasn’t the enemy I was fighting; as much as I would prefer to blame Him. It was God I was fighting. It was my flesh against Him.
God had already strengthened me. The energy that was surging through me let me know I needed to act on it. The longing was created in me almost the minute I sat down in the pew.
He gave me the ability to fulfill my purpose in that moment and I was fighting him. Like “I don’t care that it will bring you pleasure, Lord. I would rather be uncomfortable. I don’t really want to be Your instrument in this moment.” I can’t imagine saying those things to God, but my actions were screaming it.
Eventually I was more uncomfortable fighting God’s will then I was about going forward. I was able to share from my heart and minister in that moment, even though it meant being vulnerable. After, God confirmed that now moment through others. Even if He hadn’t, I still needed to be obedient. It brought Him pleasure for me to complete the work of His will.
Prayer – Oh Lord, thank you for not giving up on me in my delayed obedience. I want to be the girl You call on. I want to know there will not be a delay but an immediate response to Your will and you’re working in me. Help me to get there. I know that you can.