When I was twenty, I lost my father to cancer. I was distraught after his death because I had been praying for his healing. I hadn’t allowed myself to process his illness because I believed that God would heal my dad.
That was about the time of the faith movement “Believe and receive” that is what was preached. But what happens when you believe and don’t receive? For me my trust was broken, because I was left believing my faith was not enough. I walked away angry at God and with a deeper sense of unworthiness because God hadn’t healed my father here on this earth.
It was some time before I realized God had healed my father. It just wasn’t this side of heaven. It was my father’s time to go be with the Lord. That day he died, my father stepped into eternity healed and whole. Cancer had no more place in his life. My dad was freed from the sins that had him bound on this earth. He stepped out of our presence and into the presence of God.
I have prayed many prayers since that time for healing. Sometimes God has healed this side of heaven, other times the person has received their healing in heaven. I have had the blessed opportunity to pray with others and see a miracle. I have prayed with others and seen a faith that challenges my own, even as they step into eternity.
Sometimes the hardest thing about trust, is that things don’t look like we think they should. Trust says when I pray for healing I believe God can and will. Trust doesn’t control when that happens or how it happens. Sometimes healing will come through pills and surgeries. Sometimes healing comes through a miraculous testimony to God. Other times healing comes as the person steps into eternity. Trust knows that regardless what healing looks like, God will be there with us every step of the way.
This blog is part of a #Write31Days series on trust. 31 Days is an online writing challenge, where bloggers pick one topic and write a post on that topic every day