“Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good success in the sight of God and man.” Proverbs 3:3-4
Today is the anniversary of my first marriage. I am grateful for God’s mercy and grace. After my spouse turn to drugs, I turned from him. I was not loving in my heart and I was not faithful in my pain. I quickly ran into the arms of another. In that time I never considered God or that he would eventually restore us.
My actions created yet another obstacle in the success of our second marriage. My actions had deeply hurt my husband. He walked into drugs with a willingness, but then addiction took over. I walked into the arms of another and had only my own weakness to blame.
I had not been steadfast in my love. I forsake faithfulness. I did not tell her them to my neck or write them on my heart. I let the pain and hurt he cost to wipe away what I thought we had. And then I clung to something else. That is not love. I Corinthians 13 tells me that love never fails.
It was a hard lesson for me. It took us time to work through once he was able to break through the chains of addiction. God had to work a lot out in me.
Through the years that we struggled, God taught me of His love and faithfulness. Many years I walked with Him alone. I wanted my husband by my side; but instead I was serving God in love and faithfulness alone. I prayed. I nagged. I asked. But God was doing a work in me. Showing me how to love and be faithful to Him so that I could in turn give the same to my husband.
God’s timing is always perfect. If we will trust His process, He will bring the good and success. Sometimes He has to work things out in us before we are ready to receive what favor and good success He has for us.
It’s been 23 years now. I, we, have learned to hold steadfast to love and faithfulness. We declare it often. We talk about it and demonstrate it to each other. We have trust in each other and God. God has brought us favor and good success both in our marriage and in life.
Prayer – Lord thank you for teaching me how to be steadfast in my love and faithfulness. Thank you for showing me I’m not for sake them even when things are tough. I think you for the work you have done in my life. I think you for the restoration and healing you have brought in my marriage. Thank you for loving us and been faithful to us even when we were not.