Only you can decide when your need for healing is greater than your need to hold on to what broke you. You alone can start the journey to healing as you choose to start the healing process.
You are the only one who can decide when enough is enough. Only when you are ready to make changes can things change. Beth Moore writes “Our hearts often translate sudden and dramatic change as either instability or a form of loss. Sometimes it hits us as both.” Because of this, only when you are ready to make changes towards healing. Change will rock your world, even if it is a good change. It will mean letting go of things that you have held on to for too long. Tearing off things that have held on to you for a long time.
Sometimes people don’t feel they are worthy of anything better than what they have known their whole life, or since the beginning of the brokenness. I can only say that you deserve better. Right where you are, you are enough. You are enough to say “My enough is enough. I have had enough. So enough is enough.”
This has little to do with anything above, but it is a story that a preacher shared once, that has stayed with me and I always think of when I hear the word Enough. I will leave you with these thoughts.
“I Wish You Enough”
I overheard a Father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, ‘I love you, and I wish you enough.’ The daughter replied, ‘Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.’ They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?”
“Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?” .
“I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is – the next trip back will be for my funeral,” he said.
“When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough.’ May I ask what that means?'” He began to smile. “That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.” He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. “When we said, ‘I wish you enough, we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.”
Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.
“I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good- bye.”
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.
This blog post is inspired by Anita Ojeda and the #Write28Days Challenge. The challenge is to write 28 days in February. For more posts on this topic go to Broken Vessel.