And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:17
Maybe I have lost my thankfulness in everything. I generally love training. Right now, I dread doing training with my current trainee. In both word and deed I have only complained, instead of giving thanks for the opportunity. I have not done it in the name of the Lord, but in complaining.
Most every word that has come out of my mouth regarding her has been a complaint. The few positives that I have been able to muster, are drowned out by my constant negative words. I have looked for every reason for her to be with someone else, and most have looked for every reason to give her back. I have tried to counsel her away from her decision to take this position, but I have not been successful.
My words and deeds are not lining up with what I believe. I know that it is not honoring to the Lord. Even when I try to catch myself, moments later I go back on the same pattern of complaining. I let the poison drip out my mouth, even as I tell myself to shut up. It is one thing to think the negative thoughts, it is another to share them with someone else. Both my words and deeds betray me.
My Prayer: Lord, forgive me for not serving you in my training. Help me to honor You in word and deed, giving thanks for all that You have enabled me to do and share with other. Help me to see her as You see her.