God came to save me, even when I didn’t trust in Him. The first was at Calvary where He paid for my sins. For this one I am most grateful, for all trust in Him was born out of His love for me. If I hadn’t learned of His love, I probably would not have survived childhood, let alone my teens and young adult years.
Several times in my life I have gotten myself in other situations where I needed saving in the physical sense. I have had a knife to my throat twice, both times God saved me. I was raped and although God didn’t stop the boy’s actions, God did save me from the lifetime of scars that could have come from my innocence being stolen. Two other times, God gave me the strength to fight off another attempted rape. Once I overdosed, again God not only saved my life but His hand was upon me to keep me from going down the path of addiction.
I can look back on my life and the bad situations that were of my own making knowing God was there. I might not have been aware at the time, but now I can clearly see his protective hand. The poor choices I made placed me in unsafe situations, time and time again. I am not responsible for other’s bad actions though. Possibly that was a lesson I learned as a very young child when I saw those I love make bad decisions.
Today I can sing that God has given me the victory. God not only showed me who He was, but taught me who I am in Him. I can see how in my weakness, Christ was proved strong in my life. When I learned I couldn’t always trust myself, He showed me I could trust Him. When I should have been afraid, He was there protecting me reminding me “Do not fear.” He protected my heart, my soul, my mind from the damage that could have been done. And just because God is so awesome, He took what was meant to destroy me and has turned it into my purpose. For every thing God has saved me from, I have been able to point others with similar stories to Him for the healing that only trusting in Him can bring.
This blog is part of a #Write31Days series on trust. 31 Days is an online writing challenge, where bloggers pick one topic and write a post on that topic every day.