Boldness

Likewise deacons must be reverent, not double-tongued, not given to much wine, not greedy for money, holding the mystery of the faith with a pure conscience. But let these also first be tested; then let them serve as deacons, being found blameless. Likewise, their wives must be reverent, not slanderers, temperate, faithful in all things. Let deacons be the husbands of one wife, ruling their children and their own houses well. For those who have served well as deacons obtain for themselves a good standing and great boldness in the faith which is in Christ Jesus. 1 Timothy 3:8-13

The requirement of a deacon is similar to the Bishop, although there is a lot of emphasis on the spouse’s conduct. Growing up I thought of the deacons as ushers in the church. New most, even in our large church. Also know their wives and children. They were held in high esteem even as a child and youth.

Boldness in the faith, I love that idea. I’m not a deacon, nor a spouse of one but I can still live up to the standards. I am for the most part reverent. I am not double tongued, I pretty much say what I think and am who I say regardless of who I am around or the setting. I do feel like I am dignified and sincere. Although I do drink, I stop if I feel tipsy (which due to medication and surgery can be even part of a drink at times) and it’s been a long time since I got drunk. My faith has been tested and held. I do my best not to gossip and even more not to slander. I try not to speak falsely of another. I am still learning to exercise self control especially with food and at times my attitude but I know God has worked in that area of self control in my life. I’m a faithful person. I did my best with my kids and learned to manage my household well over time. I still want to have the boldness to stand up for Christ and speak out and up when He calls me to. I am getting better but at times I still remain silent, so I want to be bolder. I know in my youth I was bold about many things, I should be able to do the same for God.

Lord, help me to walk worthy of your calling on my life. I know I am not at all perfect and I certainly have much work still to be done in my life. I know that I’m not worthy but I thank you for using me anyway. Give me a boldness for you