His Plans and Purpose

“But his plans endure forever; his purposes last eternally. Happy is the nation whose God is the Lord; happy are the people he has chosen for his own!” Psalm‬ ‭33‬:‭11‬-‭12‬ ‭

Sometimes I question if I have wasted too much of the gifts God has placed in me. If I have wasted them with my own doubts, fears, insecurities and pride that kept me from stepping out. If in my need for control and perfectionism, I have somehow thwarted His purpose for my life. As if I have the power to control His plans and purpose. I might delay them in disobedience, but His plans are forever and eternal.

Ultimately He can use my delays, the struggles I face with perfectionism and control for His glory. Even if it is just a testimony of how He released me from those tendencies. I can testify of His faithfulness to speak to my fears, my doubts and my insecurities as He shows me that in Him I can do all things. I can testify as He shows me that my true identity is in Him. I can testify of His transformation power that releases me from pride and reminds me it is not about me or anything I can do in my own power. It is all about what He is doing in and through me. He has chosen me. In that, I can find happiness even as I struggle through learning to let go.

I remember things that once were a burning passion but somewhere along life’s journey I let the dream slip away. As I’ve went back through old journals I have seen how God has revived some of those dreams. He has brought back up those plans because they were not mine, they were His. And just because I laid them down, does not mean that His plans changed. I delayed, or maybe I really am operating in His time and it just feels like a delay to me, after all, He knows everything and would know how I would stall even as He placed me into those plans and purpose

Prayer – Lord I’m sorry for the overestimating my importance in Your plans. Forgive me for thinking I could thwart Your plans and purpose. I am a tool in Your hands. Help me to continue letting go of pride, insecurities, fear, doubt, control and perfectionism. Let me just surrender to Your will, purpose and plans. In Jesus name amen.