Here I am

Then I heard the Lord say, “Whom shall I send? Who will be our messenger?” I answered, “I will go! Send me!” Isaiah 6:8

I remember being in a school of ministry class where they asked “who I was called to.” They were looking for a nation that we felt like we were called to minister. At first I felt like a complete failure, because I have never felt called to any country other than the United States. I feel called to help women. I never felt the call to answer “Here I am, send me.” I give to missions, I pray to those who go to other countries as their mission field, but I never felt a call to respond “Lord, send me.”

I feel my daily life is my mission field. I tried to drum up some interest in Russia. It drew my attention in grade school, but still I didn’t feel “called” to it.

I have said “Here I am Lord, send me.” But I have never felt sent. I feel called to the local community, meeting the needs of the women and relationships around me. I don’t feel called to the next county over. Although within my state there are many Native American nations which intrigue me, I still haven’t felt the desire that drives me to go.

I know I struggle with time. I feel my daily life is my mission field. I pour myself into the clients that I work with. I serve others and I feel that I am fulfilling my purpose. Yet lately, I have felt there is more to what God has called me to do. That maybe He does want to send me. I am listening to His voice for direction. I am still saying “Here I am, send me. I will go an be Your messenger.”

Prayer – Lord, I am here. I am listening for Your voice. I am saying “Send me, I want to be Your messenger. ” If that is just across the street, I am okay with that. If it is across the internet, Here I am, send me. If it is across the world, Here I am, send me. I want to be our messenger.