Hidden Doors

Come near to God, and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners! Purify your hearts, you hypocrites! James 4:8

As I was walking the dog this morning and listening to Michael Jr.’s podcast, episode #172 When your spouse pushes your buttons. He walked the spouse through a technique from IFS (Internal Family System’s) that I do with my clients and that I walked through in areas of my own life before I even knew what IFS was. He shared this verse as he asked her to talk to the Lord about how she was really feeling, where she might have first felt it and what she needed in the moment and how God could meet her there.

Maybe the story of what took her to that moment that led tot he discussion was more memorable and relatable to me. I often get upset when driving with my spouse over directions. One or both of us often fly off the handle about it. So I get it. I never thought of walking back my feelings to the childhood root in it; on the surface I know the cause. As I continued walking, I felt the conviction of Holy Spirit about not allowing Him into those deeper spaces in my life. I know the process and I know the healing power that comes from allowing Him into those spaces.

Three weeks ago, I began praying Psalm 19:12-13 Deliver me from hidden faults and errors. He is showing me how I continue to look at others as the problem instead of allowing Holy Spirit to get to the root of the problem in me. God has been trying to show me.

I posted two days ago a meme “I will continue to work on me because there are times that I am the problem.” A friend posted “So true” I knew she was talking about the meme saying it applied to her life. I teased back “Thanks for the confirmation that I am the problem.”

That is how God has to work with me. If He hit me with that revelation straight out, it would be difficult for me to handle. Instead, He showed me a scripture through someone else’s story. Then gently showed it to me in my own life to let me say “Yes, that is what I want, show me Lord.” with passion. Then a little meme humor to be followed with the slap to the back side of my head “THIS IS WHAT I’M TRYING TO SHOW YOU!” So that I can receive it an apply it to me.

I love that He meets me where I am and beckons “draw near to me.” I want that, I crave that time in His presence. I have to let Him into the place that I don’t even know I have blocked access to. So many of the hidden doors from my past don’t even resemble doors. Much like the renovations on HGTV like to install hidden doors for homeowners. The hidden stuff behind those doors is meant to be a secret haven for the homeowner. I don’t have to have any secrets from God. He already knows it all and is revealing the hidden doors to me. HE is showing me how I covered them up with other stuff that have kept me from pursuing the healing He has for me.

Prayer – Lord, thank You for removing the barriers and distractions that keep me hiding areas that need Your healing in my life. I want to allow You access to every aspect of my life. I know I need You to heal those hidden things so that I can walk in complete healing and wholeness. In Jesus name, I grant You complete access. Amen.