Heart and Soul

But from there you shall seek Yahweh your God, and you will find him when you search after him with all your heart and with all your soul. Deuteronomy 4:29

Seek – Lexicon :: Strong’s H1875 – dāraš  resort to, seek  figurative read repeatedly, study; WfRD beat (a path), discuss, Pa. practise in; Late Hebrew search out (a meaning), expound; seek deity in prayer and worship:

Heart – Lexicon :: Strong’s H3824 – lēḇāḇ inner man, mind, will, heart, soul, understanding

Soul – Lexicon :: Strong’s H5315 – nep̄eš soul, living being, life, self, person, desire, appetite, emotion, and passion

This passage came up twice in my YouVersion Bible devotions this morning, that always causes me to take notice. Sometimes God has to repeat Himself to me to get my attention. I have been feeling discontent and overwhelmed for most of this year. I have blamed my schedule, which I have changed multiple times already.

I know in part, the problem is I have not been seeking God as I should. I know that journaling and prayer is a discipline that I need in my life. I am not one who tells a lot of the things I face to the world around me. Much of what I deal with on a daily basis is other people’s stuff and protected by HIPAA. So journaling and prayer are things that help me process what I can’t share with the world. God already knows it.

Journaling also keeps me on task and helps me work through things by processing and applying God’s word to my life, I can apply it to what I’m facing and I know that I need it as much as other things for my own mental, emotional and spiritual well being. I’ve done it pretty consistently most of my adult life. I found the past 17 months with the exception of when I’ve been fasting, a struggle in the discipline.

I am thankful for God’s gentle reminder to seek Him not just in passing as I read a morning devotion but with my whole heart and soul and mind. All of me needs all of Him. I know that but apparently I needed His reminder too.

Lord You know what I I have allowed to get in the way of seeking You. I know I have had much busier and chaotic seasons of my life and still sought You. Lord tear down my excuses, break down the walls, and bind any work of the enemy that is keeping me from You. In Jesus name amen.