Also, if anyone competes in athletics, he isn’t crowned unless he has competed by the rules. 2 Timothy 2:5

I am not athletic. It has never been my wheelhouse and I’ve never pretended to be. However, I am competitive. I was in college when someone pointed it out to me. Also a role follower, I like the structure rules provide.

What I’ve realized in my Christian wok is that the only person I’m competing with is who I was yesterday. I want to get better each day also more recently in learning that it takes discipline. I have to be all in to be God’s disciple. And this weekend I realized that discipline and disciple have the same letters but you have to be all “in” to be disciplined.

This weekend I also came to terms with one of my roadblocks. I like to win the prize, even if there is not really a prize. I want to be the best. To be my best. I enter a new role or take a new task on, I want to be the best. Except I can’t be new and the best. I might have some beginners luck, but competition takes training. Even when the training ends you still have to step out and run realizing you may not be the best. You may have to keep training and keep running and competing. Rules of life. Taught, you try, and you learn more, and then you try and you learn more and you try and you learn more. It’s how everything in life works.

Yet my roadblock lately has been this thought that although I will always have to learn, that I should just learn and then be successful 100%. At least that is where I’m at in the moment. I know it isn’t realistic but I have not wanted to stab it out because I am not going to be 100 percent. The room for mistakes. It is crippling.

Lord, You alone are perfect. You alone give 100% 100% of the time. Help me to allow You to shine in my weakness. Help me to move past this roadblock so that I can be all that You created me to be.