Enslaved

They promise them freedom, but they themselves are slaves of corruption. For whatever overcomes a person, to that he is enslaved. 2 Peter 2:19

The world promises freedom but there is always a price to be paid for it. I am free to do whatever I want, but there are still consequences to actions. It is so easy for us to become enslaved to our habits and routines because we let them overtake us.

I feel like I run in a cycle of balance and then I am overcome by commitment that I am tied to. My days turn into weeks and weeks into months as I’m overcome by the busy schedule and I realize once again I am enslaved to my commitments. Much for me centers around work right now. I work 40 hours a week and then I picked up eight hours of counseling on the side two days a week. That commitment seems to have increased with drive time and overbooking. I cut back to 7 hours and now have increased it to 9 for the month; plus four hours of drive time. What was a 10 hour commitment that I started with drive and work time has turned into at least 16 hours a week. It is quickly overwhelming me and I have to say “I can’t do this long term”. My commitment for the extra two hours is short term, just this month. But I realize I need to scale back.

I am exhausted and I have become enslaved to my schedule. Next week I will take off 4 and a half days. One of those days will still be spent driving, but I plan to get some rest and relaxation. I plan to recharge with my family. I will have an additional week of the crazy schedule and then I will be back to normal routine. I am still seeking God’s guidance to cut back. I don’t want to be enslaved to anyone but God. I want to be free to do what He has called me to do. I have bills to pay. But I want to be able to keep balance between my life and not be overcome by the busyness and enslaved to it.

Lord, I really don’t like living enslaved to a schedule. Teach me to learn to live like You. You know the needs that I have. I ask for wisdom and guidance while I listen to obey, that I can live in the freedom Christ died for me to have.