Run After Peace

Passage – turn from evil and do good, seek peace and chase after it. 1 Peter 3:11

Restated in my own words – Stop doing evil; do good instead. Seek peace; run after it.

Application to my own life – I woke up, a term I use loosely as sleep was scarce last night. I was really upset with my husband, he lied to me. Something little – he said he would come to bed and instead he was sleeping on the couch.

The accumulation of lies, however small they are erode at the trust that has already had to be mended in the past. I am disappointed that he tells me he will do one thing and then doesn’t do it. Like getting the yard cleaned up last week and hauling off stuff. I started doing it this weekend by loading the truck myself. It was only after he told me that he would help. He lies about the little things so I “woke up” this morning wanting to fight.

I wanted to confront him on small things and turn them into a massive thing because I needed a release. Emotions are high with my daughter. so-in-law and the kids leaving Sunday, even though it’s only a few hours away. I haven’t had any me time which is what I need to be able to process. I haven’t had downtime or quiet time and I haven’t really been able to write. So yes I’m starting to feel short tempered and that is evil.

I know that is not how I am called to respond. So I pour it out to God and I chase after peace in my marriage. Yes I need to address the lying because I doubt he sees it the way that I do. Doing that now would not be helpful. Waking up to it would be rough for him and then my anger would just go out more.

Your Response to God – Lord I give this to You. Show me how to express my feelings in love. I’m doing good, I am seeking peace and I am running after it.