Prayer Journal – September to December 2003

These prayers are taken from my prayer journal.

9/17/2003

Dear gracious and heavenly father, I love You and I am so sorry that I have failed You and myself in my commitment to give You first place in my life. Lord, I want to walk in Your presence and live daily for You. I want to know am following Your will for my life. Lord I want to live daily with the peace and joy I know come only in You. Lord, redirect me, slow me down, and keep me focused on You. Help me to set priorities, give me wisdom and knowledge. Lord I pray for Tim’s salvation. I pray for my children – give them wisdom and understanding in their spirit. Lord I pray that the generational strongholds be bound and broken off the lives of my family. Free us from the sins of our fathers, mothers and ancestors. Lord I also pray for the families of Barry County. You alone know all the needs, meet them Lord. In Jesus name amen.

10/6/2003

Dear Heavenly Father I thank You for today and for the fresh start. Thank You for encouraging me despite the fact I have failed You again. Thank You for not giving up on me. Thank You for helping me to take responsibility for my shortcomings through accountability. Thank You for Your forgiveness. Help me live tomorrow for You! Amen.

10/8/2003

Dear Heavenly Father I praise You and give You all glory and honor. I praise You for Your wonderful creations and Your loving ability to bring about change even when all hope is lost. I praise You for the encouragement that brings me. Thank You for confirming things over and over again in my life. Thank You for the attitude in Tim tonight. Please complete the work You have begun in Him. Open doors for Tim. I pray for a clean bill of health for my friend. I lift up the members of the church that are in need. And praise You for meeting the needs. amen.

10/9/2003

Heavenly Father I thank You and praise You for today. Thank You for a day where I wasn’t griped out for things I have done. Thank You for encouraging words and for quick resolutions to our marital spat. Strengthen our relationship with each other and with You amen.

11/2/2003

Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for my lack of faith and lack of actions for Your kingdom. Forgive me for my carnal attitude. I ask that You mold me and make me into what You want me to be. Help me to follow Your will for my life. I ask that You finish the work You have begun in Tim. I give You my marriage, your will be done. In Jesus Name Amen

11/4/2003

Dear Heavenly Father forgive me for my negative attitude and for words that are not pleasing to You. Forgive me for being grumpy. I come to You tonight asking for Your hand to be upon my children – protect them, guide them, and draw them close to You. Lord I ask that You continue to work in Tim. Put him where You want him to be, open the doors for him. I place what is left of my marriage in Your hands. You were able to work so many miracles in the days of old with just a little oil mixed with faith. I know with all of my heart and soul that without a divine intervention from You that Tim and I will not succeed. Please intervene and take control. I lift up all my children’s division families to You. Lord put a special hedge of protection around them I asked for your guidance and direction in all areas of my life and I pray that You create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit within me amen.

11/7/2003

Dear Heavenly Father, I’m so confused now. I know that You are not the author of confusion. I am not sure if it is right to ask this but I need a clear definite answer as to Your will for my marriage. I don’t want to say “You do this and I will know” because when it doesn’t happen, I second guess it. And I say I wasn’t supposed to tempt You. Please give me clear direction, guidance, and advice so I know without a shadow of a doubt that what occurs in my marriage – divorce or reunification – that it is a direct line with Your will for my life. Help me to find peace again. Amen.

11/11/2003

Heavenly father forgive me for worrying, for trying to solve things, and do things on my own. I need to have more faith in You and stop trying to work things out on my own timing. Your timing is perfect. Thank You for all the rich blessings You have given me. Help me to be always knowledgeable of the wondrous works You have done in my life. Lord thank You for the mercy You have shown me help me to show it to others. Thank You for your grace that it is always sufficient. Thank You for your peace that surpasses all understanding. Help me find more joy unspeakable. Help me to rest fully in Your arms knowing that the only man I have to have in my life is Jesus Christ. Lord, I pray for my household because it is a divided house. I know this will lead only destruction because your word says so. Help me to realize no matter how much I loved him that you loved him more and that the only change that will make a lasting difference in our marriage will come through surrendering it all to You. Help me to be willing to surrender it all and stop keeping part of my life “private” from You. Lord search me and help me to be willing to hear Your corrective love and make the changes that I need to in my life. Help me to stop being so open about my problems to people who will not give me biblical advice. Help me to be more open to the work of the Holy Spirit. I ask for your healing touch to me, my children and Tim in every area of our lives. I ask this in Jesus name amen.

Dear Heavenly Father I am trying to be open and honest with Tim as well as myself. It is really hard to do, help him to be receptive to it. Thank You for Your presence tonight at church. Bring a healing touch to my body and help me to rest peacefully tonight. Be with Tim and the kids, draw them close to You. Lord make me into the person You want me to be. In Jesus name. Amen.

11/13/2003

Dear Heavenly Father thank You for the wonderful day I had today. Being with other adults and not feeling like it was wrong to socialize was so refreshing. Forgive me for being proud. Help me to be a humble servant to you and give all glory and honor to You alone.

Lord, I see my life going in a different direction than we planned, I guess I planned. I pray for Your guidance and direction in knowing what is right and in knowing that I’m on the path You want for me to be on. My mind goes so many places I never thought I would want to be. I want to know it is right and not Satan trying to undermine the things You want me to accomplish.

Lord I pray that you would bring healing to my children’s sinuses, their lungs, their throats, and congestion. Lord I also pray for healing for my body. Lord draw each of us myself and my children closer to You. I pray for Tim, continue the work in his life that You have begun. Help him to come back to You and make him into the man that You want him to be.

Lord I pray that You be with my friend, she is such an encouragement. Bring healing and strength to her body. Restore her and encourage her.

Lord I pray for each of the families I have been assigned to work with. Lord You alone know everything that is going on with each of them. Be with the children and keep them safe. Lord help each parent to reach their full potential as a parent. Help them to create a loving and safe home environment for each child. I pray for each of the placement providers that are caring for these children. Encourage them. Strengthen them. Help each of them to know that you love them and that they are appreciated.

Lord I pray for the men and women in the armed services. Protect each of them and comfort them and their families.

I pray for the leaders, give them guidance and direction.

Help the Christmas program to draw others to You. I give my life to You. Use Me. Amen.

11/14/2003

Lord thank You for to day. Forgive me for making fun of and judging others. Help me to find peace and rest.I love You. Amen.

11/16/2003

Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for being so grumpy, grouchy, and hateful today. Help me to have a better attitude, one with peace and joy. Lord I pray for healing to my body and to my children, Tim, and my mom. I also asked Lord that your will be done with these families I am working with. In Jesus name, Amen.

11/17/2003

Dear Heavenly Father I am so emotionally and physically and spiritually exhausted. Lord I need Your healing touch to my body. I need Your guidance and direction in my life. I need You to make me willing to be changed and molded into the person You want me to be. Help me to make the right decision in accordance with Your will in regards to my relationship. Lord helped him too. In Jesus name. Amen.

11/23/2003

Dear Heavenly Father thank You for today. Thank You for my children and my family. Forgive me for failing to put You first in my life. Lord help me to do better. Lead me and guide me to follow Your path. In Jesus name Amen.

12/1/2003

Gracious and merciful Father, I love You and I praise Your name. You are the Creator of this great universe and the breath of my life. You deserve all the praise and honor. Thank You for Your unfailing love and Your complete forgiveness. Thank You for sending Your only Son to die on the cross for my sins.

Lord forgive me for my shortcomings, for being lazy and for putting other things before You. Forgive me for being judgmental of others. Help me to see others the way that You do. Help me to not emotionally and spiritually distance myself from others but to be joined in unity with other believers through our common bond of Jesus Christ. Help me to share with others the problems I am facing in an appropriate manner.

I need your help in the situation that I feel is impossible financially. I am not sure how the kids and I are going to make it. We need a financial miracle in the amount of $760 to cover the bills in Christmas. I need help with my daughter’s birthday. Lord I need Your assurance that I’m taking the right steps for my family and that it is in accordance with Your will.

Lord, I need to be a better mother. Be with my children and bring healing to their bodies. Encourage my children. Let You holy, anointed power flow through the children as they stand to testify of the true meaning of Christmas on Sunday evening. Lord prepare the hearts of those who will be in attendance to be receptive to the Christmas message and to be willing and receptive to Your work in their lives. I asked these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

12/2/2003

Dear gracious Heavenly Father, I love You and I adore You. I am grateful to You for opening up the doors of blessing in my life. Thank You for children who want to serve You. Thank You for my mother who despite her own trials is always there to help me. Thank You for a job that allows me to take off when my children need me. Thank You for healthy children and my own health. Thank You for sending Your son to die on the cross for my sins. I love You amen.