As I turned on the television this morning, I was watching a recorded version of Kerry Shook from Sunday. I only got the first ten minutes before I had to leave for work. Really God spoke to be before Pastor Shook really got in to the message. He was using a bridge as an anaology, in his Burning Bridges series. He said the words restoring and rebuilding, but then God took my attention.
He showed me that I was focused on allowing God to rebuild my life, but He wants to restore me. I have allowed myself to be content that God has been able to use me and having been unwilling to allow Him to peel away at the layers of my life that I have tried to bury. I have allowed Him to work in the areas that were broken and fix them. I have let Him rebuild those areas of my life, but He wants to restore my life to the orginal beauty for which He created me.
I realized that in my walk with God I have only recently began allowing Him to restore me. For the past twenty months, He has been slowly showing me areas of my life that have been hidden even to me. It has been a slow process. I have a lot of layers that I have used to keep myself safe. He has been showing me that those layers haven’t kept me safe, they have kept Him from being able to restore those areas of my life.
He wants to get down to the root of those deep issues that keep me trapped in the same cycle, and restore me to the joy of my salvation. He wants to take the good works that He already does through me and take them to a whole new level. He has to work those areas out for me to be able to truly obey Him. Those areas I have tried to cover will continue to eat away at any good thing that He is trying to do until I address them. I can only do that in and through Him. There is a reason that I have buried them, and only He can do the work in me to restore me so that I can open those areas of my life to His presence.
Those layers that I thought were protecting me, were really just keeping me from Him and from others. They are keeping me from allowing my true self to submerge, the me that He created me to be.
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